Time To Move
Posted 8th \2010f March, 2010on:
You know your living situation is untenable when:
You do not feel safe using your kitchen
You do not feel safe using your living room
You cannot be certain that being in your room with the door shut will prevent someone from greeting you through the door when they realise you are home, or from repeating that greeting when you do not respond.
A single occurence of the above continues to elicit anger and fear two weeks later.
If you should happen to be curled up with a laptop in the living room and you hear the front door opening, you hurriedly put on your headphones and turn some music on, in case it’s THEM and in the slim hope that ‘listening to music’ will, for once, be read as ‘unavailable for small talk’.
You have given up trying to play video games because they can only be played in the living room and the living room is full of THEM.
The living room is always full of THEM, which makes it unavailable to you.
Even when THEY are not in fact in the living room, you cannot feel settled in the living room unless you are sure that they are in another city, because THEY might come back at any point and then the living room will be full of THEM.
You ccannot speak about sex, money, politics, poverty, health, food, RPGs, education or many other things without the conversation being derailed by irrelevancies or crying fits.
You do not dare confront your housemate about anything whatsoever for fear of her ever-present boyfriend.
THAT tone of voice said boyfriend always uses to greet you, along with the little wave both of them use, provokes a kill response.
Mention of your housemates makes you physically flinch.
You find yourself reading selfishness or attention-seeking into every single thing THEY do.